~Secangkir Latte xoxo Secawan Espress0~: GOKUSEN!

"ble ak tgok cter cinta..ak trse sdih..mcm..trse berat dlm hti.."

"sedih? berat dlm hati? knpe? kl0 cter tu wat ko sdih biasa la.. jln cte dye mmg cmtu.."

"such a bulls**t they're making such l0ve story that w0n't even happen in real life.."

"mcm mne jln ctenye?"

"x ksahla cne un"

"hmm..ok..jd ap yg buat ko sdih?"

"ak ta tau..all i want to do.. is just cry..ak ta tau..."

"jgn la mnangis x brsbb..fkir balik knpe ko mngis sbnanye..because of love or else..mngis nie sbb kita sdih tu of course la..kdg2 stress pon boleh buat kta mngis.."

"don't you dare tell her about this or y0u'll never see my face anym0re.."

"knpe? bukn ke dye yg sllu ad ngan ko n lbih tahu condition ko dr ak.."

"ko brni wat ak xnk ngaku ko kwn ak! it has nothing to d0 with her.. n ak ta ske owg tau ak wt keje bodo ngis gnih..ak ta ske owg pndg ak lmah.. ingt pesn ak ni.. don't ever tell tell anyone or ko akn hilg kwn ko tol2.."

"Baik! ak jnji.."

"S**t i c0uldn't stop this tears.."

"knpe nie? ak x fham la.xkan ko x tau sbb ap ko ngis nie..ad kne mngena ngan spe2 ke..

ak stress je..mceh..ak nk reht..take care..syg ko..salam.."

"sme2..ko pk byk sgt nie.. jgn pk klau mnde tu ta prlu k..jgn smpi ko skit plak nnti..jge diri jge ksihatan k..ad pape cte..ak dgar.. wsalam.."

this conversation was between me n my d..
childish an prgai ak....selfish an prgai ak..hilg smua manners yg sptutnye ad...
sorry about that..
its just..
the fact that when you have so much things you've bottled up such a long time ago.... so much things came across your heart,your mind..until the time comes when you c0uldn't bear the pain,the stress..you can't even think as wise as you used to try in each of your actions..
feeling like you want to give up on everything you've tried to help on,to settle..feeling like you're totally exhausted,like you're going to collapse.. by that time tears rolled down your cheek like hell.. even though you've tried as much as you could to stop the tears.. xnk spe2 tau..air mata tu mnglir dr mata ko...mlu org tgok ko ngis..tkut org tgok ko lmah..tkut org pndg ko lembik..tkut org pndg ko cm budk2... xnk org kesian kt ko...
tu la pgangan ak.. trying my hard to hold my tears for each of my despair n problems slgi ak mmpu... but.. until the night...the night i had this conversation..until these 2days ak hbiskan cter GOKUSEN 1,2,3,m0vie,special.. #Sawada Shin is mine~~,byk mnde yg wat ak trsdar dr cte tu..dr conversation ak..byk yg ak try recall blik... ak tringat ayt dlm cter tu..

cry as much as you want..when you can't hold all the feelings,all the things you've bottled up.. let the tears out.. it will make you much better... just cry as much as you want... so that when you wake up on the next morning with a smile..n strive for what you've dream for..

its true..it is really true... i was wrong for this whole time.. crying doesn't make you weak,making you look like a bunch of little kids..instead,it makes you become more stronger n matured.. letting out the tears doesn't mean you are weak..but those tears shows that you have tried as hard as you could to face the problems.. until then you become a bit tired..and those tears are the tears of you gaining your strength back to go through the problems n looking forward of your future n your life.. jgn mlu utk nangis.. jgn malu utk kluarkn air mata tu pd masa yg sptutnya ko kluarkn.. x ksah la ko lki ke pmpuan.. it doesn't make any different at all..kta ttap manusia biasa.. tp kne pgg stu prkara....once you let out the tears..promise to yourself to get up n start making your brave steps to achieve your goals,your dreams,your aim..
fight-oh....oh! ^^

#thanks to my d...yg tpksa mndgar curse words dr ak tgh2 mlm... i really appreciate it.. ^^